” SERENADE TRUTHS “
JANUARY 1 , 2012
BY : Carrie Adams
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” Serenade Truths are words paired together here while it won’t be music to your ears , it’s stuff that Must Be Said and I guess my duty is to do just that . ”
I have joined a movement for the first time in my life that has permitted me to be public with it , indulge in the issues no matter what day of the week or even regardless of the time of day . I would have never known the depths of the family / child rights REUNIFICATION crisis and I imagine there are others whom are clueless and sadly there are millions whom are drastically affected and forever changed in negative ways .
When a person reaches middle age we generally flow with life , hard knocks are behind us , great beautiful memories are reflected among the family and the extended family members . FAMILY IS LIFE RIGHT ????? A time during middle age to fully invest in our own kids and seeing the marvel of their personal growths and achievements .
Even anticipating becoming Grandparents ! Spending family time vacations , family party celebrations , changing one’s work occupation , planning other arrangements to soften all transitions as we typically understand LIFE So MUCH MORE by NOW !
For me personally I would have never imagined my life currently and it is without my own permission and this is the very core and reasons why I am writing ” SERENADE TRUTHS . ”
If you have read my work I do share openly and it’s all written spontaneous and it will take a few hours before I post it . I do quite a bit of editing and I am my own critic yet I am happy when a piece is finished !
In my younger years I was happy , cheerful , ambitious , dependable , reliable and optimistic of my future . The very thing that I wanted most was to be a mother . Wow …. a long dating relationship , then engagement and a wedding . From 1976 to 1982 these events took place . In 1982 my birth father passed away , I was married and I graduated from a Jr. College .
I had begun working in my last 2 semesters at the Jr. College and my interest of a career was with Special Needs this line of work came very natural for me and I knew it was the perfect fit for my soul and my heart . I am a believer that a decision for any work opportunity should be 1 . That it pleases you and you believe in yourself and the confidence , aptitude and challenges are all wrapped nicely and that YOU now are the impact and influences that the community or city or world needs right THEN .
For me I saw my future and the differences I could make in behalf of others at the age of 12 . I never left this line of work . If I had my health restored I know I would still contribute .
I have had hobbies all of my life and getting older or turning into adulthood did not forfeit these interests . In 1985 I miscarried my first pregnancy . It was devastating and I felt alone with the tons of emotions and the very prolong grief of my fathers death had set a faint reality to my joy for life and it’s full happiness . What does it mean to others when these life changing moments occur without the support of their loved one /ones ?
We have an entire society that has been affected with depression and that’s natural but is it so natural to be scrutinized , shunned , rejected , ignored , estranged etc … ? Hey ; if you are the super mighty person on the sidelines without any hardship then you Must Be Your Own Fool .
What I experienced during grief was life changing and an experience that elevated my writing potential , coping with extreme solitude ( not a choice but entirely the affect of no support ) and to under go the convincing trust as a patient with psychiatric medications being prescribed it truly had worsened my life , all functions , abilities , mind , weight , sleep , activities etc …. Could I one day share the absolute hazards of these medications that were given to me – heck YES .
Skipping around slightly here and not writing a time line of events but summaries and they can be proven and have been witnessed . I had my son Jake in 1991 I felt great to become a mother . In 1993 I had my daughter Braidy Lynn and what a joy to have 1 of each ; it’s my thankful blessing and they were gorgeous babies and born healthy .
What came next is the experience of post partum – depression , so now with 2 little children I am having to continue medications and what a tragedy these medications did and what they dangerously caused to my well being and welfare yet I trusted again that Dr. and 1-2 people .
I want to state what happens when such circumstances occur and there is never the second opinion . My family was restrained from this intervention to help me – not a court order , not a script from a Dr. , all my home calls were screened , house phone rang and was ignored , door knocks were unanswered , my sleep patterns were indefinite , my speech was slurred and inaudible , hallucinations were regular , ( imagine the controlled FDA regulated depressive medications – have side affects ) , anxiety flight / fight reactions and symptoms were juggling spontaneously and this was all witnessed with my life lived in my marriage .
It was presumed CRAZY , HORRIFIC , DEVASTATING , HELPLESS , HOPELESS , HARMFUL , DANGEROUS , UNIMAGINABLE , DEATH LIKE ( did I do something bad or got hooked on alcohol and elicit drugs and lived recklessly or breaking laws ) it would be determined very selfish and criminal of me if this was true ) and all the while 1. Dr. and 1-2 people were shadowing my life and this true * BLOCK BUSTER BATTLE * was never handled properly or decently to save all the harm that occurred to me personally and with this point made ” SERENADE TRUTHS ” have reigned on high mountain tops because everything that happened to me THEN has NOW proven that the past experience while being married had nearly killed me and when it is not to one’s own doings then what reason at all have I spent from 2000 – 2006 in the jurisdiction and family domestic courtrooms ??
Stood waiting and appearing at hearings all those years so the 50/50 split of everything could concur ??? in evidence the controversy and unthinkable distruction with never having done anything to change it or dispute the evidence of harm to my well being .
Let me resume because this itself was harsh but more was to follow . In 1999 there is my divorce ( not in my conscience mind nor with clarity and in addition without even today any memory . )
To look at court records my ex mentions we were separated and this was a reconcilable difference divorce ? Not so ….
Where did I live being separated from YOU , My Home , My Kids ??
The correct answer is hospitalizations then being transferred to a nursing home . Why not these ” serenade truths ” be told ?
Who takes this kind of action toward anyone ?
A divorce being filed falsely and where was the division of household property , assets and lawful practices under due process and statutes of law ?
To throw me away and never see me again and resume your life or my kids lives without me was the only absolute agenda .
But I belong to Christ’s chosen people and he knew more to intervene and help me when YOU HAD FAILED .
Now I received my second blessing and though a nursing home is the least place to anticipate one I was assigned a Dr. who talked regularly to me , listened , charted , shared and promised with a firm conviction to help me and to change everything because his opinion spoke with heartfelt compassion .
This was not what I knew when living in my marriage . God is good all the time and I know that the results had turned 360 and what this Dr. did speaks for itself . I have not been on those medications for over 10 years now .
Many occasions in life require the third party or convey the three sides of a story !!
In 2000 I retain an attorney and the shaggy doggy path ways to the county courthouse was now a new experience and this ordeal for anyone can be problematic , stressful , anxiety filled etc …
If it were not attainable or possible to be loyal to myself ( and to my kids who remained on my mind and in my heart ) the episode of my successful detoxification done by my Dr. from these dangerous medications and wrongful diagnosis then I would not be here as an advocate for 6 yrs , live independently in 3 previous apartments , been an owner of 4 different vehicles since 2000, resumed my working career , participated in 3 ministries and working a full time midnight job , at a time worked 1. full time job with a part time job in the evening at the very nursing home my ex arranged as the onset of a divorce was pre meditated without my fullest capacity and the frailty of my life was obviously no concern to him at all .
Keep in mind these are unimagined challenges and the odds are high and the risk of needing any of those poisonous drugs could or would be evident in (helping) control the former diagnosis by 1. Dr. or 1-2 people who actively maintained their beliefs .
Is it okay to dance with excitement when YOU know that GOD has given YOU a miracle ?
Of course but let’s drag the falsehoods around for another 6 yrs because the unsatisfied ex , just cannot be wrong , his investment of our divorce was singularly function able because it all was years prior that a diagnosis or condition derailed this endeavor It’s important to seek one’s justice when it was never issued from the start – from the actual actions of being divorced .
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